Breathe Again

Car is parked, bags are packed, but what kind of heart doesn't look back
At the comfortable glow from the porch, the one I will still call yours?
All those words came undone and now I'm not the only one
Facing the ghosts that decide if the fire inside still burns

All I have, all I need, he's the air I would kill to breathe
Holds my love in his hands, still I'm searching for something
Out of breath, I am left hoping someday I'll breathe again
I'll breathe again

Open up next to you and my secrets become your truth
And the distance between that was sheltering me comes in full view
Hang my head, break my heart built from all I have torn apart
And my burden to bear is a love I can't carry anymore

All I have, all I need, he's the air I would kill to breathe
Holds my love in his hands, still I'm searching for something
Out of breath, I am left hoping someday I'll breathe again

It hurts to be here
I only wanted love from you
It hurts to be here
What am I gonna do?

All I have, all I need, he's the air I would kill to breathe
Holds my love in his hands, still I'm searching
All I have, all I need, he's the air I would kill to breathe
Holds my love in his hands, still I'm searching for something
Out of breath, I am left hoping someday I'll breathe again
I'll breathe again

Jacob..

When it comes down to it..I'll always be Jacob..
Your private sun..shining for you..even if I can't shine for myself..

"Set Fire To The Rain"

I let it fall, my heart,
And as it fell you rose to claim it
It was dark and I was over
Until you kissed my lips and you saved me

My hands, they're strong
But my knees were far too weak
To stand in your arms
Without falling to your feet

But there's a side to you
That I never knew, never knew.
All the things you'd say
They were never true, never true,
And the games you play
You would always win, always win.

But I set fire to the rain,
Watched it pour as I touched your face,
Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name!

When I lay with you
I could stay there
Close my eyes
Feel you here forever
You and me together
Nothing gets better

'Cause there's a side to you
That I never knew, never knew,
All the things you'd say,
They were never true, never true,
And the games you play
You would always win, always win.

But I set fire to the rain,
Watched it pour as I touched your face,
Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name!

I set fire to the rain
And I threw us into the flames
Well, it felt something died
'Cause I knew that there was the last time, the last time!

Sometimes I wake up by the door,
That heart you caught must be waiting for you
Even now when we're already over
I can't help myself from looking for you.

I set fire to the rain,
Watched it pour as I touched your face,
Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name

I set fire to the rain,
And I threw us into the flames
Well, it felt something died
'Cause I knew that there was the last time, the last time

Let it burn

Maybe

So maybe one day I won't feel this way...maybe one day it'll all be over and I won't dream of you..and hopefully I won't wake up with the feeling that of a knife stabbed at my chest.
At the same time I hope it won't fade away..because it's the only feeling I have at this point..
Good or bad you're the only thing that makes me feel something, it's like I don't care at all any more, nothing matters any more, it's just like going through the motions of being alive and doing what everyone expects me to do..
I hate that I put you through so much pain that you had to leave me to get through it..I hate that..I hate that I lost the only thing that kept me clinging to life..I hate losing the only thing I really truly love..
I don't like the perspective of going through life just surviving and not living..
I have many wishes...and perhaps as many regrets..
I wish I would have been enough for you..but clearly giving you my all wasn't enough to help you go through what you had to go through...
I really truly believe I have never loved anyone besides you..not even close to what it was like with you...
I know it in my heart that nothing will ever be like that again...And I hang on to the promises I made to you..At least the ones I wasn't made to break because of your choices..
I will always be waiting for you..even though I know in my heart that there's no chance that you'll come back..not with these feelings..
Maybe being close to you will be enough to keep me from worrying...and I'll be happy with whatever choices you make for yourself..I guess that's what it means, loving someone...letting them go and be happy even though you may not be part of their happiness..
I will always love you like no one else...and you'll always have a place in my heart...and life..I still wait for you..even though smetimes I believe it would be much less painful just to give up on you and go through the motions of life...
But the truth is I can't..I've tried over and over again to just give up on you...but every time I tried I pulled myself back in through my dreams..
The dreams will eventually kill my soul and there's nothing I can do about that..if I don't talk to you I keep chasing you in my dreams..if I talk to you..they get mixed up with feelings of the present and the truth of the past..
Some nights I'm afraid to go to sleep..other nights wish for it...
Just another lost soul roaming around I guess..

Adele - One and Only

You've been on my mind,
I grow fonder every day,
Lose myself in time,
Just thinking of your face,
God only knows why it's taken me so long to let my doubts go,
You're the only one that I want,

I don't know why I'm scared,
I've been here before,
Every feeling, every word,
I've imagined it all,
You'll never know if you never try,
To forget your past and simply be mine,

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only,
Promise I'm worth it,
To hold in your arms,
So come on and give me a chance,
To prove I am the one who can walk that mile,
Until the end starts,

If I've been on your mind,
You hang on every word I say,
Lose yourself in time,
At the mention of my name,
Will I ever know how it feels to hold you close,
And have you tell me whichever road I choose, you'll go?

I don't know why I'm scared,
'Cause I've been here before,
Every feeling, every word,
I've imagined it all,
You'll never know if you never try,
To forget your past and simply be mine,

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only,
I promise I'm worth it, mmm,
To hold in your arms,
So come on and give me a chance,
To prove I am the one who can walk that mile,
Until the end starts,

I know it ain't easy giving up your heart,
I know it ain't easy giving up your heart,
Nobody's perfect,
(I know it ain't easy giving up your heart),
Trust me I've learned it,
Nobody's perfect,
(I know it ain't easy giving up your heart),
Trust me I've learned it,
Nobody's perfect,
(I know it ain't easy giving up your heart),
Trust me I've learned it,
Nobody's perfect,
(I know it ain't easy giving up your heart),
Trust me I've learned it,

So I dare you to let me be your, your one and only,
I promise I'm worth it,
To hold in your arms,
So come on and give me a chance,
To prove I am the one who can walk that mile,
Until the end starts,

Come on and give me a chance,
To prove I am the one who can walk that mile,
Until the end starts.

The Other Side - Evanescence

Make me whole again
Open your eyes
Taunted by the shadows
Of your lie
Cold and far away
Like you're not even mine
Undo everything
And take me

Higher
Never believing what they say
Cause I'm

Counting the days
To meet you on the other side
I will always be
Waiting
Until the day that I see you
On the other side
Come and take me home

I'm not giving in
I want you back
Holding together by the shards of our past
Stole my heart away
I can't let you go
Break these chains
And let me fly to you

High above the world below
Over and over in my mind

Counting the days
To meet you on the other side
I will always be
Waiting
Until the day that I see you
On the other side
Come and take me home

I am so lost without my place
Inside your heart
I won't survive
I need to know you hear me
Awaken and release my love

Counting the days
To meet you on the other side
I will always be
Waiting
Until the day
That I see you on the other side
Come and take me

Counting the days
To meet you on the other side
I will always be
Waiting
Until the day that I see you
On the other side
Come and take me home

"Desert Rain"

I miss you so much now I call again
Come, come tonight
Just hold me tight
In this desert rain your my guiding light

We, We were lost
This world of pain
I miss you so much now I call again
Come, come tonight
Just hold me tight
In this desert rain your my guiding light

We, we were lost
This walk of tide
We forgot about love, You forgot about us
Now I am here
Dreams become real

I feel like a sand that's blown away
back into the storm
I'm inside this dream
That feels just like a desert rain

You will always have my soul
Hidden dreams and secret words
Missing you

I feel like a sand that's blown away
back into the storm
I'm inside this dream
That feels just like a desert rain