Random thoughts

Sometimes I wonder, should I be worried..I find myself not feeling anything most of the time. Seems that nothing matters. I feel like I've become what I despise.
I worry I'll never feel again...not like before, it is like there's a wall that prevents me from feeling anything. Of course I get annoyed wth stuff, and angry, but about what really matters?
Sometimes I wish you had never happened...maybe then I wouldn't be broken, maybe then I would still have all the friends i once had..but maybes won't take me anywhere, and wishing you never happened is like wishing I never grew up.
Of course something like that would have to happen, it should happen to everyone, I just hope they have a little more luck than I had.
I just don't know if I will ever feel again...anything at all, at seems that when all the pain washed away there was nothing left.
Wish I felt....but it was wishing that brought me where I am in the first place...