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She spills her heart on a page and
She watches words flow away then
Her feelings lie on the page alone
There waiting
For someone who cares to read them
To open their eyes to see them
To see if they can make her thoughts their own
To find out that maybe your life's not perfect
Maybe it's not worth what she gives away

What happens to a soul when
It's trapped inside her emotions
And all of these words she's spoken
They bind her to the life she's left behind
And every new step she takes
She knows that she might not make it
To all of these dreams that she has yet to find

You can see that this broken soul is bleeding
So you can see your feelings inside yourself
And wander through my heart
Letting you see through me
Now only consumes me
Forget your pain, watch me fall apart...

From Where You Are

So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us worlds apart
And I miss you, yeah I miss you

So far away from where you are
I'm standing underneath the stars
And I wish you were here

I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things
I never thought that they'd mean everything to me
Yeah I miss you
And I wish you were here

I feel the beating of your heart
I see the shadows of your face
Just know that wherever you are
Yeah I miss you
And I wish you were here

I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things
I never thought that they'd mean everything to me
Yeah I miss you
And I wish you were here

So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us worlds apart
And I miss you, yeah I miss you
And I wish you were here......

Keep Forgetting..

Thinking back when we got together
In our hearts we were saying forever
Jealousy wasn't what we wanted, we broke up
And when you looked into my eyes I should of spoke up
And held you near, then I wouldn't be alone
And here it comes again

Cause I remember every word that you said
It all just keeps spinning around in my head
But it don't matter what I try to do
I keep on forgetting to forget about you
And I don't want to think about you baby so much
All the things we did and the way that we touched
Just when I think about someone new
I keep on forgetting to forget about you
Forget about you, forget about
Watch me turn around and forget, forget about you
Forget about me and you

I would be crazy to say that we were perfect
And sometimes I was wondering if it was worth it
But now I see, how could you run from me?
And everytime I drive by your apartment
I get this overwhelming urge to walk in
And see your face and to be in that place all over again

Cause I remember every word that you said
It all just keeps spinning around in my head
But it don't matter what I try to do
I keep on forgetting to forget about you
And I don't want to think about you baby so much
All the things we did and the way that we touched
Just when I think about someone new
I keep on forgetting to forget about you
Forget about you, forget about
Watch me turn around and forget, forget about you
Forget about me and you

The way we laughed, the way we kissed
I never though that I would miss
All the things I used to complain about you
I'm just glad to see an end
But tell me why I feel so alone without you?
Here it comes again

Cause I remember every word that you said
It all just keeps spinning around in my head
But it don't matter what I try to do
I keep on forgetting to forget about you
Forget about you, forget about
Watch me turn around and forget, forget about you
Forget about me and you..

And still...I don't want to forget....

...

Not A Smell, Not A Taste, Not Even The Colour Of The Sky, Has Ever Been As Sharp And Clear As It Was When I Belonged To Her.

I miss you all the time, but I miss you the most when I lay awake at night and think of all the wonderful times that we spent together, for those were some of the best and most memorable times of my life.

I Can't Even Comprehend The Way My Heart Beats Rapidly As I See You, Even In My Dreams.

There once was a time when silence meant nothing to me...

These words where never easier for me to say or for her to second guess. But I guess that I can live without you, but without you I'm miserable at best.

What Now?

E agora?
É suposto fazer o quê?
É suposto ficar sentada à espera que volte tudo ao normal?
É suposto ficar como se nada tivesse acontecido?
Como é que é possível que esperem que uma pessoa não se sinta diferente depois
de saber que outra está em coma ligada a um ventilador?

Toda a gente que nasce morre...mas isso não implica que não se sofra
quando tal acontece, ou pior que em vez de ir em paz fica agarrada à vida
por um fio, a sofrer, e por muito que queira ir, desaparecer não consegue..
É obrigada a ficar, mesmo o seu tempo já tendo acabado...

Não sei que fazer, nem pensar...resta-me esperar...

...Dúvidas...

Bem...todos os dias deixo o pensamento fluir...e todos os dias
chego a uma conclusão..Por muito bem que me faça divagar...
tenho que voltar sempre para o mesmo sitio..
volto sempre às mesmas dúvidas...
Sempre de volta aos mesmos medos...
Por muito que digam que vale a pena arriscar para ser feliz,
e por muito que eu o queira...as dúvidas destroçam-me o coração..
O facto de saber que há muita gente que não se importa com nada para
além dos seus pensamentos fúteis...
Destroça-me o coração saber que amo uma pessoa tão
profundamente...e não sei se o sentimento é recíproco..
As coisas são todas muito engraçadas quando são fáceis...
não é com isso que me preocupo..
Preocupo-me com a parte que ninguém quer pensar..
com a parte que toda a gente teima em ignorar.
Quando as coisas ficam difíceis...a vida complica-se...
o tempo fica escasso para tudo e as pessoas afastam-se e chegam
ao ponto de se ignorarem umas às outras.
É que dá muito trabalho mandar uma mensagem,
ou passar 5 minutos ao telefone a perguntar se está tudo bem...
e se as coisas nos correm como esperado, mesmo sabendo já as respostas..
Coisa estranha...detesto tantos sentimentos...
mas todos eles trazem uma coisa nova à existência...
O medo que me consome todos os dias...
o medo de perder alguém que se ama...
é uma sensação inexplicável...
Saber exactamente o buraco que seria causado na
alma se uma certa pessoa desaparecesse...
Ter a certeza absoluta que essa pessoa vai acabar por desaparecer,
mais dia, menos dia...apenas uma questão de tempo...
São sentimentos como este que me partem o coração, dia após dia..
Por muito que tente recuperar destes cortes constantes na alma,
torna-se difícil olhar para o dia a dia e para as decisões fúteis de tanta
gente e não gritar com essas pessoas...por vezes bater-lhes até...
Gente tão mesquinha...só se preocupam com o que os outros vestem,
e se estão produzidas o suficiente para os restantes snobs...
Fingem que se preocupam com os restantes..mas quando
estes viram as costas fazem o que todos os fúteis fazem..

Estou a divagar, já perdi o fio à meada..humm...

To be continued...

I used to sing...

Sweet and high at the break of dawn
Simple tune that you can hum along too
I remember there was a time
When I used to sing for you

Knew all the words to the popular songs
With the radio on full volume
I remember there was a time
When I used to sing for you

Forget the chorus, you're the bridge
The words and music to everyday I've lived
There's nothing, I wouldn't give
For one more time, when I can sing for you

Soft and low when the evening comes
Holding you, sleeping in my arms
I remember there was a time
When I used to sing for you

I used to sing for you...