Codes

Damn, you make it hard
Shouldn't need a riddle to unlock your heart
So, say what's on your mind
We got other things that we could do with our
Time, we could rule the world
Know you say you never need another girl
But, you're not making sense
Trying to keep it moving while you're on the fence

Tell me black and white
Why I'm here tonight
I can't read the signs

Stop talking in codes,
Let me know what's up, can't do it no more
I need a love to celebrate
So baby, take it all the way
Stop talking in codes

It's a mystery
I know that something happened in your history
Oh, it's too much to risk
You give me some, but you've been holding most of it
Back, so it's no surprise
Everything you do, I over analyze
Breathe, in and out
Baby, give me something new to think about

Tell me black and white
Why I'm here tonight
I can't read the signs

Stop talking in codes

Holding on for life

Enemy, used to be
Part of you, bittersweet
But now you tell me lies
Up and down, cold and hot
Swear to God, got to stop
Because I can't sleep at night

If you wanted love like this
Blowing up with every kiss
Should've known better
Because you find yourself alone
Chilling you right to the bone
No, should've known better

You and me just
Running towards the light
Giving up the fight
Hoping we survive
You and me just
Strangers in the night
Giving up the fight
Waiting to ignite
Holding on for life

Lost in you, lost in me
Afraid of love, in too deep
So we just run and hide
Lightning fast, felt the crash
Scared to lose, fear attacks
We only know goodbye

Hopelessly holding on
To all those perfect nights
Let's pretend it's not gone
And say we'll never die

Good Enough..

Under your spell again.
I can't say no to you.
Crave my heart and it's bleeding in your hand.
I can't say no to you.

Shouldn't let you torture me so sweetly.
Now I can't let go of this dream.
I can't breathe but I feel...

Good enough,
I feel good enough for you.

Drink up sweet decadence.
I can't say no to you,
And I've completely lost myself, and I don't mind.
I can't say no to you.

Shouldn't let you conquer me completely.
Now I can't let go of this dream.
Can't believe that I feel...

Good enough,
I feel good enough.
It's been such a long time coming, but I feel good.

And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall.
Pour real life down on me.
'Cause I can't hold on to anything this good enough.
Am I good enough for you to love me too?

So take care what you ask of me,
'cause I can't say no.

Anywhere

Dear my love, haven't you wanted to be with me
And dear my love, haven't you longed to be free
I can't keep pretending that I don't even know you
And at sweet night, you are my own
Take my hand

We're leaving here tonight
There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down
So by the morning light
We'll be half way to anywhere
Where love is more than just your name

I have dreamt of a place for you and I
No one knows who we are there
All I want is to give my life only to you
I've dreamt so long I cannot dream anymore
Let's run away, I'll take you there

We're leaving here tonight
There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down
So by the mornings light
We'll be half way to anywhere
Where no one needs a reason

Forget this life
Come with me
Don't look back you're safe now
Unlock your heart
Drop your guard
No one's left to stop you

Sometimes the feelings really mean are found in the letters which you write and never send..

There are so many things I want to share with you…so many things I want you to notice in me, these things wander around in my head all the time and I believe I won’t get rid of them until I can get them out. I really wished we were still together like we were back then not in the way you’re thinking about…just being friends, the friends we were then…
What I miss the most are the simplest things…I miss the way we laid in the dark and talked for hours about what we thought the future would bring, I miss the long walks at night…I miss being with you, I miss playing with you,  I miss playing computer with you…but I think what I miss the most is holding your hand…and being able to comfort you whenever you’re feeling down…I miss being able to tell you how I really feel for you…It makes me feel like I’m lying to you all the time…
I hate the fact that I have to keep everything I feel inside…because I don’t want to move too fast, because I’m scared you’ll just push me away…I’m scared of, maybe, not being able to bring you back into my life…I’m scared of having to live my life without you by my side…I could do it, I’ve done it actually, but that’s not living, that’s surviving, and I don’t want to spend the rest of my life trying to survive without you, every single day…but mostly I’m scared of waking up one day and seeing you with another guy, don’t get me wrong…I want you to be happy no matter what the consequences are, but I love you, it hasn’t gone away after all this time, and I know that it is here to stay, it would just crush me…even though all I want right now is to be your friend and be a part of your life again it doesn’t mean that I can just ignore what I feel…I can put it aside as long as you want and be just your friend, but if you fell for another I really don’t know what I would do…this thing just keeps going round in my head, wish I could tell you…I wish you could just read all the things that go through my heart, but it’s not the right time, and I really don’t know when that right time will arrive, or even if it will…
Until everything settles all I have to do is hope, that maybe one day, you’ll love me as much as I love you right now…
All the times I sit here alone thinking about you hoping you would come by and spend the afternoon with me like we did so many times back then…listening to music and playing all day…I don’t remember any time in which I was happier than then, I really don’t…and that’s what I hope to get back, your trust and my place in your heart…and if there comes a time when things evolve into what they were after that…if we ever become more than friends again, well…if that ever comes to happen, I’ll be the luckiest person on earth, if not it doesn’t matter I just wish I can still live my life with you by my side until we grow old and become those old ladies who talk all afternoon and were best friends their whole lives…=)
It was only with you that I changed my perspective of my future, I always knew what I was going to do, I was going to work, have a place of my own, have a bunch of dogs, help the ones I could, and grow old with them on one house in the countryside…you changed that, you made me realize that I had a chance of having a life full of love, with you and I, always together until the end…
But well, at least now I know that I can either end up alone, or with you…I dream of no other by my side…and I came to think every now and then that you may have underestimated when I say to you that I would always love you…I was right, I will always love you, I know what this feeling is, I know it because I’ve never felt it before I met you…I never felt what it really was like having a soul mate…and now I know…and I don’t intend giving that up…even when the hardest things happened there was only one thing I was sure of…and that was it…this feeling never left me, even when I said we should be some time apart, I never stopped loving you, I just needed to get my mind straight about certain things I was dealing with…after all that happened…I was never capable of hating you, I was so hurt about all the things that I had done that I hated myself, not you…I hated myself for not being able to show you how much I really loved you…
So, after all these things I’ve written…I don’t know what to do with this, well, letter I wanted you to see it, but I guess it’s just too soon, because I don’t want to scare you away…I guess I just needed to get these things out of my chest before they burst out…

Dated: 01-06-2008

Drop In The Ocean

A drop in the ocean,
A change in the weather,
I was praying that you and me might end up together.
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert,
But I'm holding you closer than most,
Cause you are my heaven.

I don't wanna waste the weekend,
If you don't love me, pretend
A few more hours, then it's time to go.
And as my train rolls down the east coast,
I wonder how you keep warm.
It's too late to cry, too broken to move on.

Still I can't let you be,
Most nights I hardly sleep.
Don't take what you don't need, from me.

Just a drop in the ocean,
A change in the weather,
I was praying that you and me might end up together.
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert,
But I'm holding you closer than most,
Cause you are my heaven.
Misplaced trust and old friends,
Never counting the regrets,
By the grace of god, I do not rest at all.
And new england as the leaves change;
The last excuse that I'll claim,
I was a boy who loved a woman like a little girl.

Still I can't let you be,
Most nights I hardly sleep,
Don't take what you don't need, from me.

Heaven doesn't seem far away anymore
Heaven doesn't seem far away.

A drop in the ocean,
A change in the weather,
I was praying that you and me might end up together.
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert,
But I'm holding you closer than most,
Cause you are my heaven.
You are my heaven

A Thousand Years

Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave?
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall?
But watching you stand alone,
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow.

One step closer

I have died every day waiting for you
Darling, don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

I have died every day waiting for you
Darling, don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more